No Gifts


A guy asked his guru what he wanted for his birthday. The teacher said, “No gifts, only presence.” Yoga asks us to be mindful. But what often happens when we try to be mindful? The mind rejects our idea immediately. To practice mindfulness is said to be like taming a wild elephant. If it were easy, everyone would do it … Read More

No Old Age and Death


Passed by Long Beach yesterday on our way to Santa Monica.  I wanted to go see my sponsor. It had been 7-8 years since he’d last visited me in Portland. I met him in Long Beach in 1991 when I was going to college. Showed my wife my old house there in LB and the coffee shop where I studied … Read More

Holiday from Hell


I was just reflecting on my Thanksgiving in 1995 in Dallas, Texas. I was working in Tech Support, riding my bike to and from work, stopping in at the gay alano club on the way to and from. I’m not gay, but was willing to go to any lengths to stay sober. Well, except for the pot. I used to … Read More

Just This Moment


Everything slips away into the past. It’s all gone forever. Ever notice that? I was thinking about my childhood. Seems like it was hardly me. My years getting sober in San Jose. Slipped away. My life in Portland, no longer exists. This past year and all its turmoil, like a bad dream. I remember my Zippy. I still love him. … Read More